Ryan

Well to tell the Tale of Ryan I would need more time then I have. So I am going to try my best to explain. I met him in 7th grade but probably didn't really talk to him until late 8th grade early 9th grade. We didn't really become friends until Anthony and I started to date. I will talk about all of Anthony’s really close friends except Ben. I don’t think he ever really liked me. So in some way I was connected to all of his close friends at one time. Zach. Jesse, and Ryan. Although I dated Zach I was still closer with Ryan then any other one of Anthony’s friends. And When Anthony and I broke up every one of them was there for me. I guess they all did like me. They weren’t just hanging out with me because I was with Anthony. Well when Anthony broke up with me Ryan and I became best friends. Anthony was no longer my best friend since he wasn't talking to me. Ryan and I spent that whole summer together. Ok I am getting ahead of myself now, back to the beginning.

9th Grade was when Ryan and I started really talking. The reason for this is he started dating Jennifer, my best friend. So Anthony and I and Ryan and Jennifer would go on double dates. I remember once we all went to the Mall and saw the movie Anna And The King. I am sure none of us will forget that day. LOL. After awhile Jennifer and I didn't like it when Anthony and Ryan would hang out because they turned into Jerks. I think we were all a little stressed out those days. Also Anthony always thought Ryan was flirting with me so there was a lot of Drama.

Anthony broke up with me at Ryan’s house a week after school got out. That is the night I really saw how much Ryan did care about me. He was willing to do whatever it took to make me smile. I really was able to see he was a true friend of mine. Well Anthony and I only broke up for the weekend and then we started dating again. Until July 7th. I am so glad Ryan was there for me that summer. I really needed his support. Ryan and Zach were probably the people I talked to the most that summer. Besides Chelsee but, she doesn’t count. The only time I have ever been to Bumbershoot was with Ryan and his family. They even paid for me to get in. I had such a great time that day. Ryan and I got these henna Tattoos. I needed like two more Dollars to get the one I wanted so he helped me out. Ryan got a super man one, and I got a anklet that was like the one my mom really had.

Well School started a couple weeks later and things were different now. We were in high School. Some people didn't even know That Anthony and I had ever dated. Ryan and I talked all the time. In between classes and we wrote letters to each other and talked every night. Then came the Day Ryan told me he liked me and that he wanted to date me. I was not at all ready for a relationship, especially one with Ryan. If I were to date Ryan Jenn would kill me. A relationship was not what I wanted and with Ryan it would have been a relationship. Also I didn't look at Ryan in that way. When I though of Ryan I thought of a great friend and that was something I didn’t want to ruin. Well I did decide to date Zach. Ryan was so mad. He didn't understand that what Zach and I had was a rebound relationship. We just wanted a person to flirt with, with no other commitments. As soon and I started to really like Zach we broke up. Ryan and I went back to being friends and everything was good.

Ryan and I did everything together. We went to Homecoming together. I had such a great time with him that night. While we were dancing to the last slow song of the night I remember thinking I didn't want it to end I wanted to stay right there dancing and not thinking about how unhappy I was. At that very moment I was happy. And I even for a moment wanted to be with Ryan. I don't know why and the feeling didn't last that long. And as soon as I thought it I let it go because there was no way i was doing that to Jenn.

In November I met a guy named Brad. He kind of swept me off my feet. And I really started to like him. Now this made Ryan really not happy. When Brad and I started to date Ryan was so annoyed. But I thought that when Brad and I started to date it was only going to last a month or so not anything to big.

January 13th 2001 our Sophomore Tolo. Ryan had been keeping a secret from me. For a while and he wouldn't tell me. Since Brad couldn’t go to the dance with me since he was in College and I was a Sophomore I went with Ryan. The dance was fun but not at all as good as homecoming. Well Ryan pulled me aside at the end of the dance and told me what he had been keeping from me. He told me he loved me! I didn't have any idea that is what he was keeping from me. I was so shocked and think I said WOW! I couldn't believe what he said. So that night my best friend told me he loved me.

Things were different after that. Ryan and I didn't talk that much and he was annoyed with me a lot.

The next school year I was still with Brad and didn't have any plans of breaking up with him and I am sure Ryan knew it. Well one night in October I was out with some friends at a party and I got very drunk. Well I went over to Ryan and I guess he figured I wouldn’t remember him talking to me or he was intoxicated himself because he told me he hated me. I really didn't know how to take that. We pretty much stopped talking then.

Well that January I moved to Renton. Brad broke up with me and well, my whole life really sucked. That April I went out to stay with Chelsee for there Spring break. That week was awesome. I got to see Anthony and all of my friend and Ryan showed up at the Party I was having. Well I wasn't supposed to know he was coming. But I thought he might be the one everyone was talking about. He apologized for being such an ass to me before and we started over. Chelsee and I went to Ryan's that night to see the guys. Anthony and Jesse were staying there. So we all chilled there and talked about the past as we always did. Ryan and I ended up in the hammock we spent so much time in when we were still friends. It was nice to be out there with everyone. I don’t think anyone knew how much I missed them. I stayed all day with Ryan on the Saturday before I left. His dog Peed on Chelsee that day. LOL. I will never forget that. Well I left after that and I didn't really talk to him for about a year.

October 2002 I was out taking care of Brad because he has surgery. Well Cheryl his sis and I were at the store getting Drinks and stuff like that and I saw Ryan and his date and two other people. It was there homecoming. I didn't stop and say hi. I knew he would have been so excited and I didn't want to make his date mad. Well about a week later I was going through old stuff and found letter he wrote me and I really started to think about him and I really missed him. I took the letters over to Katie's and she read them and was like you need to call him so I did. We arranged to have me go out there that weekend for a concert and I could stay at his house. Katie and the last minute came along. We had such a good time. The thing is I felt so good being with him. When we hugged or just everything. I decided I did like him. Well he found out we were keeping something from him so I had to tell him. He did have a girlfriend but he told me earlier that it wasn’t working out for them. So since I couldn't say it Katie taped it to his pants. LOL.I know I know we are stupid but it got the job done.

Well Ryan and his girlfriend broke up and we started talking about dating. We needed to work things out with the distance. But I thought it could work. We started even acting like we were dating. Then everything changed. I really want ready to jump into a relationship but I was going to try. Take things slow and see how it works. Well Ryan scared me away. He was grounded and couldn’t come and see me and he missed me a lot and well he started talking about marriage. YIKES, I wasn't ready to do that. I couldn’t even think that right then. So I told him It wasn't going to work out.

We again didn't talk.

About a month before prom Jeremy and I went out to bethel high School for the day. When I saw Ryan I ran into him. Now I guess Ryan was having a really bad day. So when he saw me his whole day was instantly good. I can still see his face with a huge smile on it. He took every lunch that day.I had a great time with him. I started talking to him about Prom and how he told me that if he was single he would take me and he said he was going with Tanya. So I made him feel bad and I was all like i see how it is no love no love. SO he told me he wouldn’t go with her. Now good thing Tanya was a friend of mine or else she wouldn't have ha a date. But I couldn’t do that to Tanya. Later on it turned out Maurice wanted me to go with him. now Maurice was one of the hottest guy at school. When we were in 10th he would only date 12th graders so that was cool. Good thing I have hott friends huh.

So I went to Prom with Maurice and Katie. I am so cool I had two dates. Well Ryan was supposed to save me a dance so at least I would be able to dance with him. Well Brad and I's song came on and my heart broke I almost started to cry I was so upset. Anthony was dancing with Meryl the girl he cheated on me with and he looked so happy and in love and then mine and Brad's song came on It was all to much. Then out of no where Ryan grabbed me and started to dance with me. He has no idea but he saved me at that moment.

June 11th 2003 Bethel's Graduation. Ryan was at the last moment told he wasn't graduating. So we sat together. It was so hard watching all of our friends Graduate without us. It was a little easier for me because I graduated early.

Two weeks later was Jesse's grad Party and It was a blast. The picture on the top of the page is Ryan Trying to drag me into the rain After Anthony already dragged me in the rain. Geesh boys these days.

Over the summer I had Parties and Ryan would come to them. Him and Katie hit it off and even dated for a bit. They broke up a couple months ago. Ryan and I still talk but we will never be together and I think that’s how it is supposed to be for the Story of Ryan and I. we are only supposed to be friends.

Ryan I want you to know you mean so much to me. You were there when no one else was. I know we will be friends forever. Keep being yourself don’t ever change. And I promise one day some girl is going to come and sweep you off your feet. You deserve a wonderful girl and I know one day you will get her.